{"id":764,"date":"2016-05-11T14:31:07","date_gmt":"2016-05-11T19:31:07","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blogs.ethnos360.org\/brion-kendzora\/?p=764"},"modified":"2017-01-31T17:14:48","modified_gmt":"2017-01-31T22:14:48","slug":"dont-lose-heart","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blogs.ethnos360.org\/brion-kendzora\/2016\/05\/11\/dont-lose-heart\/","title":{"rendered":"Don’t lose heart"},"content":{"rendered":"

I have been going through a very tough battle with postpartum depression. It\u2019s been kicking my behind. Big time. I wouldn\u2019t wish this upon anyone, yet I know that God has me on this road for a specific purpose. Many people have been noticing (and telling us) we are sick an awful lot, that there always seems to be something going on with our family. Well, they\u2019re right. We have had a really rough road. One that we have thought about giving up on many times (or at least I have). It shouldn\u2019t be this hard right? Is this a sign that God really doesn\u2019t want us to be here? Or is this a crucial time that we need to push through all this junk and show everyone where our strength lies, who we really serve, how powerful our God really is?<\/p>\n

\u201cTherefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.\u201d 2 Corinthians 4:16-17<\/em><\/p>\n

\u2026..And mic drop. Guys\u2026. this! This is my life. Right at this very moment. I am (literally) wasting away and yet day by day, God is the one who is keeping me together and whole. These troubles I am facing, are they anything in compared to an eternal life without Christ, which is what some people are going to face? They are in fact\u00a0\u201clight\u201d. Wow. The more I struggle with panic attacks and times of deep\u00a0despair, the easier it is for me to\u00a0remember\u00a0to turn to truth. To run to the God\u2019s word and find peace and perspective.<\/p>\n

The way our\u00a0God\u00a0loves and teaches us will always be astounding to me. I have a hard time finding joy amidst this trial, but I have come to the point of being thankful for it. Is it making me a great missionary? At the moment, not at all, like, seriously the worst right now. But God desires for me to be even more dependent on him and this is my way of learning. Over and over. God is great and his plan for our lives is perfect. I never would have asked for all these trials over the last two years; the hardest\u00a0years\u00a0of our lives so far, but I know that every hardship we have faced has been intentional and for our good.<\/p>\n

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I feel a lot like the precious girl in this picture. She feels totally safe in her daddy\u2019s arms. That little pup can\u2019t touch her when she is being protected by her daddy. She is so confident in him and she\u2019ll even stick her hands right in the dog\u2019s mouth.\u00a0Knowing\u00a0he is there is all she needs to feel safe, untouchable and brave. I am in my fathers arms and I\u00a0can\u00a0be brave knowing he is\u00a0watching\u00a0every big, bad and scary thing that comes into my life. He even put them there! (Just like we put our pup Lola in our house.) Knowing\u00a0that some day that that scary thing will not\u00a0always\u00a0be scary. That that scary thing brought us closer to\u00a0himself for protection, for courage, for truth.<\/p>\n

Man, God is just so so good!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I have been going through a very tough battle with postpartum depression. It\u2019s been kicking my behind. Big time. I wouldn\u2019t wish this upon anyone, yet I know that God has me on this road for a specific purpose. Many people have been noticing (and telling us) we are sick an awful lot, that there […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":944,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_genesis_hide_title":false,"_genesis_hide_breadcrumbs":false,"_genesis_hide_singular_image":false,"_genesis_hide_footer_widgets":false,"_genesis_custom_body_class":"","_genesis_custom_post_class":"","_genesis_layout":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[640,4,70544],"tags":[448,637],"class_list":{"0":"post-764","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-life","7":"category-ministry","8":"category-south-america","9":"tag-ethnos360","10":"tag-new-tribes-mission","11":"entry"},"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogs.ethnos360.org\/brion-kendzora\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/764","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogs.ethnos360.org\/brion-kendzora\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogs.ethnos360.org\/brion-kendzora\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.ethnos360.org\/brion-kendzora\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/944"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.ethnos360.org\/brion-kendzora\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=764"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.ethnos360.org\/brion-kendzora\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/764\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogs.ethnos360.org\/brion-kendzora\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=764"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.ethnos360.org\/brion-kendzora\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=764"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.ethnos360.org\/brion-kendzora\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=764"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}