Just a little over a week ago we moved into our new house. We are so blessed to find such a nice house to rent. The Lord really brought it to us and we are so happy to be living in our own place now. With a new place though came a lot of renovations to make it more western family friendly, like a shower and a sink 😉
Joshua and Lily are doing very well. The move was a little hard on them but they seem to be adjusting okay now. Lily will be six months old in a week! She is growing up so fast. Joshua is talking a lot now and he loves being outside and especially loves riding the motorbike.
Covid19 is here in this city but so far we don’t know for sure of anyone who has been affected by it. The lack of work during this situation has really hurt the very poor people here. Please pray for God’s mercy here. Crime has gone up because people are getting desperate. Just a few days ago we had a helmet stolen from our yard and as much as it annoyed us, I was also happy that that person had something to sell in order to buy food.
Our lives haven’t changed that much except that we can’t go out as a family anymore and are mostly limited to staying at home. We try not to be out and about without masks because the people here are very afraid of westerners because they believe the virus came from us.
With the government offices shutting down because of Covid19 we are realizing that it is very likely that our visas won’t be processed in time for us to go back to the USA in mid-September as originally planned.
Our plans for the next couple months are to hit language learning really hard and try to catch up a bit. Eric is also going to begin teaching foundational bible teaching lessons with a group of believers here as language practice.
So that is a little bit of what everyday life looks like right now but on a different note, I wanted to share a little bit of what is going on in our hearts.
The song that keeps running through my mind all throughout the day recently is the song “Keep me near” by Rend Collective. There is a part in the song that says “rescue me in weakness of mind when distraction conquers me. Keep me in your shadow, O Lord. Give me grace to follow where you lead”. I realize this is a struggle within both Eric and I. Our hearts desire to serve the Lord and yet so easily we allow ourselves to be distracted by the things of this world. We have struggled with managing our time well and we know that and yet we still fail often. I feel like Paul when he says “For in my inner self I delight in God’s law, but I see a different law in the parts of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and taking me prisoner to the law of sin in the parts of my body”. There are times at the end of the day that I sit down and wonder “Lord what am I doing here? I feel like such a failure.” Days can pass when I have had barely any language learning time and my kids seem so demanding and whiny and I just feel at the end of my rope. We have been here for almost two years and we haven’t finished learning the national language yet and I just feel like a pathetic missionary. We came here with dreams of great success and instead we are met with our inadequacy and our sinful hearts. We ask you our friends and coworkers to pray for us, that our hearts would be focused on the Lord and that we would not be striving to live for ourselves but that in each moment we would be asking the Lord, “what would you have for me in this moment?” I know this maybe sounds discouraging, but in reality, we have been encouraged in the Lord despite our weaknesses. We are but fragile clay jars and the Lord knows that and takes us and uses us where we are at. We are so grateful to him that his patience and love is overwhelming and abounding even in our smallness.
We love you all and we are so thankful for you! It is so encouraging to know that you all are praying for us. Please let us know how we can be praying for you too. We know it is quite a difficult time for everyone in the States right now and we are so grateful for your continued support of us.