I am so glad I had a migraine last week.
Because I had a migraine, I was home Friday morning when Julie felt an increase in pressure in her chest and an irregular heartbeat, and was able to take her to the emergency room. After 24 hours of observation, they still aren’t certain what is going on, so she’ll be headed to the doctor soon to see what we need to do.
Probably just as important, it reinforced for me that I need to live like it’s Sunday, even though it’s still Saturday.
Saturday, Jesus was in the tomb and the disciples were hiding, fearful, confused. Easter Sunday was when the disciples saw Jesus face-to-face. It was the day things made a lot more sense. It was a day of hope and joy.
Certainly, we know Jesus has risen, but in a sense it’s still Saturday for you and me. We live in a fallen world. A place where stuff sometimes doesn’t make a lot of sense to us. A place of fear and confusion.
But that’s not how we’re supposed to live. We know Sunday is coming. We know we have a hope and a future, and we’re supposed to live like it’s Sunday.
So instead of fretting that we still aren’t sure what’s wrong with Julie, I’ll choose to be glad that so far all her tests are coming back good.
I’m not going to worry (OK, really, I’m going to have to work at not worrying) about how we’re going to afford a deductible and co-pay of $2,700 – more than double what we have to live on each month. I’ll choose to thank God that we have insurance that covers the rest, and have $200 provided so far.
Rather than being concerned that the car we rely on for ministry is small and aging, I’ll be grateful that its known big problems have all been solved and it’s still running and we own it.
I guess we all have a lot of migraines, so to speak, that remind us that it’s still Saturday. It can be hard to even think straight sometimes, harder still to remember that God is orchestrating an entire universe for the good of those who believe – that’s you and me – and for His glory.
Now, don’t spend a lot of time trying to figure out how. It’s enough to give you a migraine. But rejoice in that, and live like it’s Sunday.
Mary Triller says
I will be praying for you and Julie. For continued great reports from the doctors as they sort out the reason for her irregular heartbeat. For the finances to come through for all that is needed. And for you both to continue in the ministry opportunities that God has set before you. And lastly, that you both rest in His arms not worrying as He has it all covered. Yes, live in the victory of Sunday, as Jesus did it all for us when He said ‘It is finished.’ The veil was torn and we have our relationship back with Him totally.
Blessings and love,
Mary