I don’t know about you, but I hate spending money… and I just told Stacy “I want you to start spending money.”
To be clear though, I quickly followed it up with “On school supplies.”
Because we lived in three different states, we began homeschooling our kids last year. When we move to Senegal next year our plan is to continue homeschooling. That means we will need to buy school curriculum for the next three years or so, to bring with us.
Giving Stacy free reign to buy school curriculum is a step of faith, not because I don’t trust my wife, but because it requires me to trust God. Recently I have been increasingly assured that God is going to provide for us to be in West Africa, yet Stacy’s carefully prepared lists of needed school books has sat largely unpurchased.
This morning God seemed to whisper into my heart “Why are you holding back?”
Our goal is still to arrive in Senegal by January, why then would I not be doing all I can to prepare to get there by January?
“But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” -Matthew 6:33,34
For me being anxious about tomorrow hasn’t been worrying about all the things we need before leaving for Africa. Instead, my anxiousness snuck in when I began holding back my full allegiance. It began by failing to seek the Kingdom of God first.