Easter weekend came and went. It was delightful. The time with family was rich and fully enjoyed, the food was in abundance, and the celebration of our risen Saviour was especially memorable. Our daughter is one and half now and brings such a fresh joy to these occasions. The little egg hunt we did with her was so much fun! Her face lit up with accomplishment and delight with each one that she found.
My heart was full. My heart was grateful.
Yet somewhere else within me I kept fighting off this sinking feeling. I tried so hard to ignore it. I mean, it could be two years away right? But my best efforts couldn’t ward off these thoughts that more than likely, we only have one more Easter here in North America before we leave. That’s one more Easter with family. Cue the flood gates right?
The thought of all the goodbyes that will eventually come leaves a bit of a pit in my stomach. Yet at the same time I find myself feeling excited to move to South America, to set up a home there, to dive into Spanish study and to see all that God has planned there for us. Such a mix of emotions.
As I kept pushing those thoughts from my mind, it left me appreciative for the here and now. Thankful for this Easter with my family and all that came with it. Thankful for the hockey tickets that Pete and I received so we could go out on a date and see a game. Thankful for every second of every minute that our families have with our daughter. Thankful for a powerful reminder, in our own heart language, that Jesus is who He said He was and that His sacrifice on the cross gave way to true life for all of us who came afterwards. He gave us a reason to say those hard goodbyes and move to South America with our little family. He gave us a reason to have just one more Easter.
We don’t know how our timeline will play out exactly. Several things have to fall together before we’ll be on our way. But this weekend was thought provoking as I sorted through some of these thoughts. The closer it comes the more these thoughts arise. We are grateful to have served with NTM for so many years here in North America, although it was never our original plan, as we have not had to face these things yet like so many of our friends.
So, with likely just one more ahead of us, we try to stay in the now and not think too much of what is to come, even though at the same time we need to be ready for it when it does. Truth be told, we don’t know what the future holds. We don’t know how many years we’ll be in South America or how many Easters we will be away from family. And that’s okay. Jesus gave us a reason to go and we can’t wait to see how He is going to use us in His great plan for the nations!