My friend Kim (my daughter-in-law’s mom) who helped with Tyler’s birth, said I wouldn’t even look at him. She kept trying to hand him to me, but I wouldn’t take him.
I thought I had the PERFECT plan – two boys and two girls – but God obviously had a different plan. And I wasn’t exactly thrilled with it.
However, it didn’t take long to fall madly in love with that child. And I’m very thankful for a very wise God who doesn’t give us what WE THINK we want, but what HE KNOWS we need. I had no idea how much I would need that sweet, dear boy in my life and now can’t imagine life without him. But I had better learn quickly because he’s leaving for college tomorrow – and I’m nowhere near ready to say goodbye.
And while he packs and I go about my day, still trying to find the vacuum cleaner that I think got buried under the seven loads of laundry I finally did, and while loading and re-loading the dishwasher several times ((I fell into a “housework hole” while working on a writing assignment) and also making cookies for Tyler and his favorite dinner tonight, I just wish someone would hand me that sweet little bundle all over again. Because I guarantee my reaction would be quite different from the first time!
Moms? Take whatever bundle God hands you – and enjoy every minute. Because while 18 years seems like a long time and it feels like there’s PLENTY of time to do what you want to do with your child, I now only have 18 more hours before my precious 6’3″ bundle walks out this door. And it came WAY too soon.
Note: And if you look at the picture above, you’ll notice Tyler’s sweet sister came along 14 months later. God planned to give me another girl all along. He just knew I needed Tyler first! Thank-you Lord!