Did you ever notice that the little things are what you take for granted until you don’t have them anymore? That the little things you complain about doing are what you long for when you can’t do them anymore? For instance, housework. Honestly, who really enjoys cleaning your house from top to bottom every week or doing the dishes?
For the past three weeks I’ve had no energy at all. Less than no energy, if that were possible! The only symptom of this illness? Constant bone-weary exhaustion! That’s it! Trust me, I’ve had all the thoughts crossing your mind now…‘well, you’ve been under a lot of stress and have had a lot of changes these past few months and it’s catching up with you’ or ‘you do work hard all day’ or ‘what tropical disease might you have come down with?’ or to views on the other side, ‘you’re just plain lazy’ and ‘you’re procrastinating again’. Yup, thought them all and more. But it does make me stop and think when I can barely finish a few days’ worth of dishes before going back to lie down again. And the fact that my house is grossing me out but I still have no drive to get off the couch and change a thing about it. Or that I come home from work and promptly lay down for a 3 hour nap, get up afterwards for an hour or two of laying on the couch, then back to bed for a 10-hour night! Pathetic, I know. But right about then I began to understand how grateful I am for the ability to clean my house and do the dishes. Not my favorite things yet I’m wishing I could do even that! Yes, I’m getting desperate now! LOL! However, about the time I’m questioning my own sanity and soundness of mind, it seems energy has decided to return. Just as it went sneaking out, it came sneaking back in. Now I’m back to not wanting to clean the house or do the dishes though I am fully able to do so. Yup. I’m back to normal. And thank the Lord for that!