It’s funny. The average American Christian is probably saying “Please, Lord, don’t send me to Africa.” I’ve heard it over and over growing up in the church.
Our family is another story. I guess you could say we are not the norm. Here we are saying, “Lord, please let us go to Africa.”
There have been several times along this journey where I have wondered if we would really ever go. During our first few months when we didn’t have a home and a new baby was on the way I wondered this a lot. Then there was the time when we were not accepted for a loan repayment program last summer. And now again, I have found myself wondering again. Will we ever go?
Here we are awaiting an unexpected surgery for our precious little boy with just over 3 months before we are supposed to board a plane to Tanzania. Really God?
Thankfully this is an outpatient surgery. In all reality it is so minor compared to what some children go through. However, it is surgery nonetheless and it wasn’t part of our plan.
Now don’t get me wrong, the plans haven’t changed. We are still preparing to leave for Tanzania in early August. But things like this make you wonder. They make you doubt. They make you become anxious.
God is so very good though. In our moments of weakness, He comes though. He reminds us of truth and draws us tenderly to Himself.
I was reminded by some friends from our training class the other day that God will not let us pass on to the next chapter of this journey until we have learned everything we need to in this one. That spoke volumes to me. It reminded me that we STILL need to learn to trust Him. You would think by now we would have learned that lesson, however, it continues to be a struggle.
I am choosing today to trust God.
I am choosing today to trust God with our son.
I am choosing today to trust God will our finances.
I am choosing today to trust God with HIS timing.
Even if God said No to us going to Tanzania, He would still be good. Prayerfully, that will not be the case. But I pray that we would be okay with whatever God decides for our family. We want to be where He can get the most glory out of our lives. Even if it means a No.
Lord, please find us faithful. Please help us to choose your glory over our preferences. Please help us desire your will over our own. Please help us to point others to You during this time of uncertainty.