It. Is. Hard.
As you know, we are still waiting to find out the status of our work permits for Tanzania. There is now a new process for acquiring work permits, but even before we knew about that there were a few other complications as well. So, needless to say, it’s been a slow process.
Originally we were supposed to leave for Tanzania 1 month from today. It’s a little hard facing today knowing that and knowing that may no longer be a reality. BUT at the same time, it may. God is still at work, we just can’t always see it.
Through this process I have realized how wishy-washy my faith can me. One minute I feel so confident in waiting, knowing that there is absolutely nothing that I can do but trust Jesus. But then there are moments when I feel like I am drowning and become so anxious about what’s to come or not come.
If I’m honest, this waiting time has been a little bit of a dry season for me spiritually. I am spending time in the Word, praying and seeking, yet, still I feel a bit distant. I was just reading Steams in the Desert this morning and found this little gem:
“Yes, God knows our need for a desert experience. He knows exactly where and how to produce enduring qualities in us.” L.B. Cowman
So good. So what I needed to hear this morning. If nothing else, may God be producing enduring qualities in me. I want to serve and love Jesus for the long haul, not just when it feels easy and I can see Him at work.
So, we wait. And trust. And hope. Knowing HE knows what is best for our family. We should know by July 15th if we are going in August. Ten more days to be stretched and refined. If we are going we will have about 2-3 weeks to pack up our lives. Otherwise, we will wait until January.
Please keep praying for us as we wait. We will continue to pray for August, our hearts desire, and trust Him with the rest!,
Together Making Him Known,