This afternoon I found myself playing a video game with Nicole and Jacob. I could probably count on 1 hand the amount of times I’ve ever played video games. Part of the reason is that it just doesn’t interest me, but probably the main reason is that I just lack any and all skill at playing. As we started the game, I tried my hardest to maneuver my little car on the track. As long as things went smoothly I did quite well. But I found that the unforeseen objects that suddenly revealed themselves in front of me, or those that attacked me from behind, tended to throw me off course and sometimes off the edge of the track into the abyss.
Well life lately has been like the car in that video game. We try to make plans and move forward but unforeseen circumstances keep revealing themselves and other circumstances attack us from behind. When we started off 2017, I declared it “my year” to recover and just enjoy life after all the treatments I endured for breast cancer last year. However, the unforeseen happened and I found myself in the hospital with cellulitis and while maneuvering through that unforeseen circumstance, I was “attacked” from behind with the news that my breast cancer had metastasized and I am now stage IV. I feel in some ways that I have fallen off the end of the track and am falling in the abyss. I have been dumped into endless doctor appointments for treatment and scans of all kinds. But despite all these obstacles, we find the need to turn to the Lord to find the strength we need to continue this cancer journey. Psalm 62:1,2 says, “My soul finds rest in God alone, my salvation comes from him. Truly he is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.” Hiding in the Lord as my rock, is like hitting the reset button in the video game. It is only in Christ that I find strength to stand despite the unforeseen circumstances that continue to come our way.
Please pray for me, and for our family as we once again face this cancer journey. Pray that we will continue to lean on the Jesus our rock and salvation.