Am I ready to meet my Maker? We have it in our heads that we are all going to live a long, healthy and happy life. That is great and all, but God never tells us we are going to live a long, happy and healthy life. Trials will come. Sickeness will come. Death will come. How will we praise the Lord when we are faced with these things? I have been fearing death lately. Not for myself, but for one of my babies or for my husband or another family member. How would I carry on if I lost my husband? How would I carry on if I lost one of my children? Would my path change? Would my life still be dedicated to seeing the lost come to know Christ?
Living life in worry and “what if” is not healthy. I know that. I blame it on pregnancy hormones. But seriously, I know that this is not the life God want’s me to live. In Isaiah, God is crying out for the people to trust him, to rest in him, but they turn to every other idol and nation for help instead of God. In the end of Deuteronomy, God tells Moses that these people are going to stray from him even though He is always there for them and has brought them through so much. He tells Moses to write a song for them to sing when they do turn away and face hardship.
What about me? I know that I turn to my husband first instead of God a lot of times when I worry about something. I know that God is the only one who can help me, so why do I turn to Brion and burden him? Because he is right next to me and sometimes it’s hard to remember that God is with us all the time. Just because we cannot see Him and don’t always know how is working does not mean that He has left us, abandoned us.
Am I ready for trials? Am I ready for death? Am I ready to meet Jesus? I should be living my life like this is my last day. Honoring God in all I do. Enjoying time with my husband and son. Ready for anything God puts before me, even if it seems unfair or to difficult to handle. “Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus” (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18).
Trails bring perseverance, death is gain and I need to be ready to meet Jesus at any moment!